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April 7th, 2010

07:13 pm - Sick I guess... o_ I think I might be coming down with a cold after Casey and I did so well all this time of trying to keep me from catching his. -_- My voice was getting raspy a couple of days ago, but now I've practically lost my voice, my head feels heavy, and I've been constantly tired. I'm kinda surprised I'm not coughing though so I guess there's a possibility that I've caught something other than Casey's cold. '_' Casey's actually been coughing a lot lately though he says he's 100% alright now; he sounds much sicker than I feel personally. o_< I've slept in bed for so long. I'm still tired but I still really want to play and do things. I feel like I'm in the stereotypical situation where you have a kid sick in bed looking out at the kids outside wishing he/she could play too. ^^; I drew this of Casey's and my Aion characters the night before I lost my voice. I was listening to Aion music while working on an art commission; it was late (7am-ish???), I needed a break, and I was in an Aion mood because of the music. XD

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April 5th, 2010

06:05 am - Hello again and Total EPIC FAILURE JOURNAL!! It's been a total epic failure in trying to continue my journal, huh? XD -but hey, like I said before, I just need to loosen up and not think of live journal so seriously and think of it more like a blog I guess. o_< I've been pretty well lately, just seemingly really busy. o_< I've done a number of commission works lately which is really great, but I've developed a habit of working way longer and harder at them than I'm supposed thus it takes extra long for me to deal out a finished product. '_' It can be pretty frustrating because there are so many other things I want to do besides commissions and I admit that if I'm working on the same commission for too many days, I really start getting bored of it, hindering the process speed even more. >.< The recent commissions have been taking much longer than usual because I've been focusing a lot on developing an art studio with Casey. It's taken a lot work but we finally turned one of the rooms in the house into an office for our working environment complete with newly painted walls, furniture, etc. It looks really great! Too bad I don't know anyone really to invite over so that we can have a professional-like afternoon tea and cake meeting at the "conference table." XD I think it'd be really fun!~ -maybe with some pie too... >D Casey got really sick soon after we finished the office; it was pretty bad, it took him about a week to recover. He's doing pretty well now, but he's still been coughing pretty bad. '_' ----------------------------------------------------- MMOing Surprisingly and sadly Casey and I quit playing Ragnarok Online about over a month ago. '_' Casey just couldn't stand how the GM's were running the servers anymore, not to mention the constant server problems and the diminishing player population. I don't know if we'll ever go back; I guess only time will tell. >.> I miss the friends that we've made on the server, though I suppose I've already become pretty detached from them months and months ago since I rarely been logging in because I've been busy with commissions or other things. ._. We got Aion a few days ago so we've been checking it out. It's okay; it has its ups and downs, but it got us into thinking a lot about World of Warcraft strangely so now Casey's kinda gotten into WoW again. XD Aion's cool and all, but it really seems to be lacking the freedom of exploring a vast world full of different cultures and races and the ability to do in-depth skill and/or stat customization, not to mention that their quests just aren't interesting. -_- Aion has a pretty cool character creation engine though. =D -and it's fun to glide on wings and the battle system is fast-paced. We actually aren't TOO far in the game and maybe it gets better later, but those are my impressions so far. '_' --------------------------------------------------- Recent Commission I just finished a commission a few days ago; it's the first picture I've done as a commission that was requested that I not share with the public due to it having personal value. It kinda sucks when you put so much time and effort into a drawing and aren't really allowed to show anyone. ^^ ----------------------------------------------------- Gaming Casey got Zelda: Spirit Tracks for the Nintendo DS over a month ago. It's really really cool! =D We got it from Fry's for $25 so go get it!! >D I highly recommend it! I haven't passed it yet but it's really good! =D I'm kinda doubting I'll finish it anytime soon though; I never seem to finish games nowadays. -_- I think the last game I actually PASSED was Kingdom Hearts 2. o_< I think it's kinda interesting how I don't seem to finish or play many games nowadays; it's kinda like I can't call myself a gamer anymore. @_@ I feel like I'm just sitting on the edge of almost being able to consider myself a "casual gamer." >.< ouch... It seems to happen to a lot of people my age. '_' BUT, though I don't really play or pass many games, I still love them and keep up in recent gaming news so at least maybe I'm not totally lost, right? XD Hardcore Gamer at Heart?? =D

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May 31st, 2009

09:17 pm - Let's REALLY try for more entries!! OKaaaay~ Let's see how long I can keep up doing journal enries. @_@ I'm really gonna try! Wish me luck! XD Since there's been such a HUUUUUGE gap in time since the last time I posted, I'm not going to go back and recap on a ton of things @_@; just a few major ones off the top of my head and maybe mention others some other entry. An old highschool friend of Casey's moved in with us in January because he had nowhere else to go. He can't pay for his car insurance so I've been driving him around a lot which has been soaking up a lot of time. He's a fun guy to be with because of his upbeat attitude, but I'm starting to feel like I'm spending too much time with him and yearn for a break. >.< I miss having the house to ourselves (CAsey and Me) and I'm really tired of spending so many hours of my day out driving him around and grocery shopping. He often wants to come with me when I shop for food. I normally want to get it done quickly so I can come home and do something more MEANINGFUL, but he keeps telling me to slow down and walk at his speed (slower than normal?? o_<) and he REAAAAAALLY likes to browse. What would normally be a quick trip to the grocery store ends up being an outing that takes almost the whole afternoon. >.< I'm really thinking of telling him that I want to grocery shop alone for now on. '_' He's been looking for a job on and off since he got here and finally got hired recently. I'm really not looking forward to being his chauffeur, It makes me kinda angry too thinking that I have to waste my time driving him around. >_< Soon after Casey's friend moved in, they decided to go on a diet so we've been making home-made meals a lot more often and my skin gradually became worse. It became similar but not as extreme as how my skin used to be like when it was really bad, a taste and reminder of how thankful I should be when my skin is better. It went on for months with Casey and me not knowing what triggered my condition until we decided to experiment with rice being the cause which is currently under suspition. My skin isn't completely better yet, but I've been staying away from Rice for the past week and I've noticed a considerable improvement on my skin condition. ._. If this is true, wow... ._. It reminds me of when I was in Taiwan a few years ago and was telling my dad that the tap water was affecting my skin condition and him retorted with something like "next you'll say you think rice is the cause and you'll stop eating rice!" ...o_< He really wouldn't be happy if he knew this. XD I had a lot of trouble trying to concentrate on drawing so I haven't been drawing or doing much of anything (other than driving around and doing chores); I drew the above picture in frustration that I haven't been getting anything constructive done; I was feeling decent at the time, but didn't have the patience or concentration to do any more than that. ( Read more )

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January 17th, 2009

12:48 am - The New Year 2009! Wow, so it’s been about four months since I last posted. Time sure seems to fly by fast. o_< I guess a ton of things have happened since I last posted. o_< -I’ve sold my first commission artwork. -My sister gave birth to a little girl. -My brother is finally in Cogswell College. -My dad came back to the states for the holidays. -My grandmother broke her hip a few weeks before Christmas so everyone’s mood in my family’s been kinda down. -My mom is still trying to sell her house. -Casey and I are still trying to develop our company. It’s been decided that Casey’s company, Aizen Innovations, will not be selling anime and manga merchandise as a main function. Having a shop wasn’t what Casey had in mind in the first place, he was thinking of just having that on the side. What he really wanted was to start a community for people; something more than a hub, I’m pretty sure I wrote about this before, but I don’t remember if I had on Live Journal. o_< It’s kinda complicated and I don’t really feel like going into details… >.< http://www.penny-arcade.com/ is a good example of what he wants to make. XD I went back to my home town of San Jose during the winter to spend time with my family. It was rather nice because I got to see family I haven’t seen in a very long time. I miss them. I was really worried about seeing my dad there at first, but it all seemed out to work out okay. He acted like he normally does so I guess the things that happened before are not so much of an issue (it kinda goes deeper, but I don’t really want to talk about it =/) It really sucks that though it seems like we both want to spend “quality time” together, it’s never “quality time.” He wants me to devote most of my time with him when we can, but when we ARE together, we don’t really talk; we go grocery shopping. I miss him, but just because I’m not going to school nor have do I have a professional careers, he seems to think that I always have free time. (end topic >.>) -------------------------------------------------------- Persona 4 Yay! Before I left to San Jose to see my family, Casey got Persona 4 for the Playstation 2 as our Christmas present to ourselves and it’s an oh-so-awesome game! T-T I haven’t been so much into a video game in ages! @_@ the writing, the characters, and the battles are so great! I have nothing bad to say about the game except that we got to point later in which one of the characters I really liked all of a sudden is starting to act like a jerk to another character. -_- Why? Why Yosuke? T-T It was so fun I never wanted to stop. We haven’t really played it since I got back from San Jose though. *sigh* -The reason to this is in the following topic. ‘_’ ---------------------------------------------------------- MMO Casey bought World of Warcraft just before Christmas because he thought we should try expanding out to that community to do custom art. Getting WoW was not only for personal experience, reference, and research, but because it has such a huge player base. Casey’s friend Erik came to live with us a few days afterwards and being an almost WoW-addict himself, he’s been an immense help in teaching us about the game. It’s been really fun having Erik over because his presence really brightens up the mood of the house. He’s really playful, is humorous, and Casey and him joke and play around together so much. I’m also really happy to see Casey clicking so well with a buddy-buddy friend since I never really get to see that side of him. It was just Casey and Erik playing WoW together for the first few days while I worked at drawing; I admit though that it looked rather fun. Casey later thought I should try playing too; I was kinda reluctant, but he activated an account for me and I started playing some also. I thought for a long time that WoW was “evil” and that I didn’t ever want touch it; I hate saying this, but it’s a rather well made and enjoyable game. '_' it’s so vast, so pretty, and there are so many good ideas implemented. From a game development perspective, I think it’s really amazing! The only thing I think is a real shame is that the character creation engine could have been better; I think Phantasy Star Universe did this the best to date. I think I’m doing pretty well at my pacing of game play time. I really enjoy playing, but I believe I have enough sense of duty and responsibility to keep focus on my priorities. It’s such a shame though that I’ve almost completely stopped playing RO now however. -_- I love the game but thinking of playing it just sounds so unappealing because I’m so tired of experience grinding in circles, killing the same enemies for hours on end for days and probably weeks and months to gain levels. That’s probably my largest draw to WoW, the fact that doing plentiful quick easy quests distracts you from leveling (and gains you levels too) and gives you a direction, a goal, and achievement constantly and that your chances of getting helpful gear as pauper are fairly good. So yeah, WoW is a rather well made game, just make sure you have the sense to not let it rule/ruin your life like what I’ve heard has happened to countless people already. >.< -------------------------------------------------------------------- Meet the Robinsons I finally got to see Disney’s Meet the Robinsons a couple of days ago on Youtube. =D I’ve been kinda interested in seeing that movie for awhile but even more so recently after asking and hearing from so many people that it’s actually a good movie. I rather enjoyed it! ^_^ There’s only one part of the movie that I didn’t really care for which was after Louis, the main character, first gets acquainted with the Robinsons during which the pacing sped up really fast, but I can understand why they did it. o_< Other than that part, it was positively inspiring and entertaining. –and of course like most time travel stories, there is the issue of time paradoxes happening, but I suppose we should just accept them for entertainment purposes. ^^ I really want to see the movie again. I’m a bit surprised that I was able to find the whole movie on Youtube since I couldn’t find Shrek3. o_< I’ve been rather behind in watching movies, that combined with my stinginess has resulted in my “piratism(???????).” I don’t download the movies, but am I still considered a “pirate” if I search and watch them on Youtube? o_< One of the main points about this movie I wanted to talk about was that I think it has a good lesson to teach, to “keep moving forward” and to let the past stay in the past. I’ve heard this line numerous times throughout my life of course, but watching this lesson portrayed in the movie gave it a nice oomph. I’ve actually been thinking about it pretty often lately and have been feeling a lot more in control of my life and its direction. I strangely feel like I have a destiny now. I know it might sound kinda silly, but that’s literally how I feel. =p It’s a good movie so you should watch it! (Watch “The Secret” too. >.>) ----------------------------------------------------- Art posts Here’s the stuff I’ve done over the past four months.~ ( Kill your bandwidth? )

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September 18th, 2008

10:31 pm - Packing the Monster House in San Jose Well, I guess summer’s officially over and autumn has started. The weather has cooled down quite a bit here in L.A. It still gets rather hot here in San Pedro sometimes because though Casey and I live in San Pedro near the sea, it’s in a bay surrounded by high mountains so there’s not much wind. I’ve been doing a lot of things over the past month or so, but at the same time it feels like I haven’t been doing anything. '_' Casey got sick after we came back from helping my mom move, pack, and sort boxes in San Jose and I ended up catching his cold a few days later. We were soooo exhausted from working in San Jose that we ended up taking a two week break (aside from getting sick) before heading back up to my mom’s house. We sooo didn’t want to do anymore boxes. -_- It first seemed like there was some progress since we left so I was a bit happy, but after we placed the mattresses down where we were going to sleep during our stay, we noticed that there was actually little to no progress. >.< -just a few boxes were moved around. My brother Bryan came to help do box work for mom too for almost two days since he’s back in the states. He’s already moved into the dorm and has started classes. I’m a bit worried about how he’ll do on his own because it still doesn’t seem like he has the drive to do anything. ._. When I called him about helping my mom do box work about a week before we left back to San Jose, he told me that he’d be busy because he needed to buy school supplies. We met with him about two days after we continued working on my mom’s house and he still hadn’t bought his supplies. I kinda have the feeling that he’ll do okay in class, but he’s always had a problem about not being able to take other peoples’ criticisms and he gets agitated easily. I’m worried about him living life on his own and the possibility that he’ll be tied to my dad by a chain for the rest of his life since he tends to do whatever my dad tells him to do without any life desires of his own. My sister gave birth to a girl who she named Zoe (Zoeey) but she’s kept my mom left in the dark about the whole thing. My mom knows now because Bryan and I told her about it. I feel it’s a bit sad that my sister wants to cut communication with my mom so much. –thinking about it I guess I can understand why though. My mom’s really tried to put her negative feelings against my sister aside and had even opened up and tried celebrating my sister’s life occasions, but my sister can’t seem to let go of her negative trash which threw everything into a seemingly endless negativity cycle. -_- Haha, sorry to bore everyone about family matter thoughts! XD I’ll move on. Anyhow! Casey and I finally got pretty much the bulk of my mom’s mess done and we rushed home! XD Upon coming home though, we decided to take care of a bunch of our own home mess such as giving the whole house a thorough wipe down. T-T I was exhausted and soo didn’t want to… -_- About after two days of cleaning house, Casey decided that we deserved a two-day break, the first day in which I spent the whole day joyously doing NOTHING! It felt soooo good! T-T Casey’s dad came over a few days ago to help him clean out the garage and it was funny because it ONLY TOOK FOUR HOURS! XD LOL Casey kept telling me how fast it seemed compared to cleaning out my mom’s house. Since him and his dad cleaned out the garage, I felt it was time for me to clean up my junk too. '_' I ended up bringing a bunch of half-assed packed boxes back from my mom’s house with the “I can sort it out later” –kind of mentality. It took me two days to clean up and I’m still going at it. ._. I was feeling kinda upset after the second day because it really didn’t seem like I made much progress, but then I counted that I eliminated 8 boxes through sorting, and throwing away/donating to charity so I guess it’s not so bad.~ I got much better at sorting what is worth keeping and what to get rid of since my experience of being at my mom’s house. I was feeling sad sorting through some of my old stuff because they reminded me of my family and the times I’ve enjoyed with them. I found a letter that my sister wrote to my mom, my brother, and me when she left for college in Santa Barbara. I felt so terrible because she wrote how much she missed home and us and I honestly don’t remember ever reading the letter before. I’m guessing I probably threw it in one of my half-ass boxes while at my mom’s house. I’ve never really heard her say anything about missing us like I read in the letter. I kept thinking how alone she must have felt and how we didn’t even respond. I called her cell phone right away, but no one picked up. I’m not sure what I would have said anyways. ._. -and that’s where I’m at now… I still need to sort through my stuff! >.< I think I’m almost done though! =o ( Read more )

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August 13th, 2008

08:05 pm - What’s happened since… April? >.> A quick doodle and color of Riesz, my Ragnarok Online priestess. XD ------------------------------------------------------- Deviant Art Page/ Strawberry skies As I said before, I registered for a Deviant Art page and actually posted things on it. I didn’t really feel like doing it at that moment, but I did it because it was a step to get my name more “out there.” I really want to become an accomplished artist and it’s just one of the kind of things you have to do, right? =o I was getting more and more into it as people were quickly discovering my gallery so my art piece comments gradually get happier and happier. XD It was exciting getting comments from a bunch of strangers; a bit later though, I found some pages to some really good artists that just blew me away and I starting to feel down about drawing again. >_> Rummaging though Deviant Art is interesting because you can find some really awesome artwork and interesting tutorials from good artists. I ended up spending an afternoon and evening later just watching tutorials and picking up tips on how to CG better. I’ve incorporated some of what I’ve learned and changed a few of my methods and I feel that they really help. ^-^ -though it also feels like I have a long way to go. o_< Casey convinced me to get a domain name soon after *officially* starting my Deviant Art gallery, emphasizing that “it’s so cheap so why not?” (it costs $15 US a year) The URL is http://www.strawberryskies.net. It’s pretty much the same as the Geocities site I started back in 1999, but with more up-to-date images, info, and links. ^^;; It’s not so artistic nor pretty, but at least it works. ._. ------------------------------------------------------------- AiZen Anime Shop Since Casey was laid off a while ago, he’s decided that he’d rather build his own company and pursue his dream than go back into the IT field. He bought a license to buy and sell anime related merchandise so now we’re officially a shop!! ^.^ His company name is AiZen, but he wants to put the part that deals with anime entertainment under a different more “friendly” name which we haven’t decided yet. =o We don’t have a website or any kind of front neither so there’s still a lot to do. Casey wants to make AiZen more than a store; he wants to make it into an anime community a company that gives back to the people, making a difference in peoples’ lives. He wants it to be a place where people can mingle, chat, inform, and help one another. An example of what he wants is Penny Arcade. -SO, if you guys wanna buy anime, manga, figurines, etc., ask us! =D We can probably give you better discounts than most other places! XD ------------------------------------------------------------- My Brother and Taiwan/Cogswell My dad convinced my brother to go back to Taiwan this summer and take Chinese classes and was asking me if I wanted to go back with him (I’m assuming that he was offering to pay for the flight ticket if I wanted to go o_<). '_' I kind of want to go, but I don’t want to be with my dad if I stay in Taiwan. ._. I still have awkward feelings towards my dad from the things he said to me last time I was in Taiwan even though now he acts as if nothing’s happened between us; he hasn’t even apologized. It seems like no matter how much he’s hurt me, I still love him… Bryan’s in Taiwan right now and it sounds like he’s really not liking his time there. ^^; It seems though that his mood about his situation have improved a bit when compared to what he’s said in his recent letters from letters during the middle of his trip. He’s scheduled to move into college housing when he gets back to the states and it’s arranged for him to have 3 housemates! XD Sounds like fun! ^.^ He’s probably not so thrilled, and it isn’t so great according to what I’ve heard from my friend Yuusuke’s roommate experiences, but I can’t help to feel a bit excited because I’ve always wanted to try living like that. XD For years, I’ve imagined what it’d be like to live in a college dorm with fellow college-mates with whom you can make friends with; with people who you can pass in the hall who’d remember your name and possibly say “hi” or want to hang out. I know I’m probably over glorifying it from too much fiction reading/watching and that it prooobably emerged from some kind of psychological need for people to acknowledge my existence, but I can’t help to get excited when I think about it. XD –though, Bryan’s going to be moving into a HOUSE and not a DORM so I guess my excitement is a bit irrelevant. o_< I think it’s a bit sad that I’m more excited about Bryan going to Cogswell than Bryan himself. ._. So sad… -_- ------------------------------------------------------------- Anime Expo/Inspirations Casey and I went to last Anime Expo this past July and I had a really AWESOME time!! XD It’s been so long since I’ve had so much fun at an anime convention (though I guess I haven’t really “been” to a anime convention in a long time since I’ve always been in Taiwan when Fanimecon happens. >.>) The thing I realized about AX though is that the video room schedule really really sucked because about 90% of whatever they were showing are shows and movies that have been licensed and out on video since I was in high school. >_> *sigh* -so, the point about going to AX to have fun is not to see the video rooms, but to see the events and people! XD The first matter I want to say about what happened at AX is that I ran into a high school friend that I haven’t seen in years there, David Galon. =o I was standing about seven feet away from him but he didn’t seem to recognize or notice me and was talking to someone who appeared to be a friend. '_' I was surprised because he looked really different from the last time I saw him, but I’m sure it was him. I just stood there with Casey not sure what to do, I was too embarrassed for him to see me, so I didn’t end up talking to him… The first thing Casey and I did on the *official* starting day of AX was go to the dealers’ room. XD Our main objectives were to check out the Gravity (Ragnarok Online) booth, the NIS America booth, and to scope out the sales competition to see if we’d do okay if we started setting up shop at AX’s. We didn’t do much merchandise browsing though because we figured that we could get most things anime/manga cheaper anyways. o_< Stopping by the NIS America booth was one of my major highlights of the day. T-T I remember reading in a newsletter I got from them that Haradaya, the infamous artist and character designer for Disgaea and many other Nippon Ichi games, was going to be there and will be giving autographs. =D I asked one of the people behind the counter about him and to my surprise, it seems like most or all of their staff at AX were from overseas (or at least seemed to speak English as a second language). o_< -anyhow, after some communication, I found out he was still there and I got him to sign two freebie prinny hand fans; one with my Chinese name and one with my English name!! =D As I was getting my autographs, Casey was wandering around the booth and a piece of Disgaea merchandise caught his eye, a large canvas print of Disgaea2 characters for… I think $350. He decided that he wanted it and convinced me that it was a good buy (since I’m so stingy ^^;) and we requested Haradaya to sign it. ^.^ His autograph session was over so they took us into the booth and I got to sit down and talk with Haradaya and a translater for about five minutes!! XD It made me really happy. T-T For the record also, our canvas print is 8/100, so that means there’ll only be 100 prints and ours is special because it has his signature! =D –and we got to sit and talk to him! XD The other main places we went to check out were the Anime Music Video Contest and artist alley where I got to see some fellow BAAU members. Here’s my favorite AMV from what was shown at the contest: It was really great seeing old BAAU friends again. I miss hanging out with them at BAAU meets. ._. Though not as a part of AX, I got to see the movie Paprika at home that weekend. XD Casey bought it a few months ago, but we never saw it till then. I really like the movie; >.< I definitely recommend that people see it! =o I think it made itself into my “favorite movies list.” ~ ----------------------------------------------------------- Mom Moving My mom’s putting our house in San Jose on sale since she can’t afford to pay mortgage anymore. ._. I went back about a few weeks ago to pack and move most of my brother’s and my stuff out of the house and just came back on the 11th two days ago from helping mom for a little over a week of packing, sorting, and moving boxes. We’re still not finished though; there’s soooo much stuff there. -_- The worst thing about it is that most of the boxes aren’t sorted in any way and half the house AND the garage were jam-packed with them mostly due to the fact that mom decided to remodel the house before selling so the construction crew needing to clear out rooms. My mom, out of depression, also tends to neglect mail so a lot of mail and receipts have piled up and a lot of them are scattered all over the place. Casey came with me and helped for the first weekend, but had to leave back to Los Angeles until the weekend afterwards. Work is really slow because my mom doesn’t seem to have the motivation to work unless I ask her to join me or when my aunt’s there to help which she does two times a week for a few hours. All Casey and I seemed to do was wake up, do the “house-work,” eat, and sleep; we were both so worn out every night. I started having dreams of moving, packing, and sorting boxes and every morning when I got out of bed, I so badly didn’t want to do anymore boxes. Even though we’ve come back to Los Angeles, I’m still having box dreams. T-T I just had one last night. We’ve thrown out and donated so much stuff. *sigh* Not only is moving boxes a big point in my life right now, but there’s also a lot of drama going between my mom and sister. ._. My sister refused to do anything to help my mom weeks ago but then just recently tells my mom she wants to pick up her old stuff from the house. There’s a whole mess of other things about this, but I’m not going to get into details because it’s just too, much. -_- -anyhow, I have a strong feeling that my sister won’t have family contact much anymore after this point in life. '_' It’s kind of weird thinking that the town I grew up in which I can consider my “home town” won’t have the “home” to go back to. '_' I think it’s kind of sad, but we have to keep moving forward with our lives, right? ^^

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July 24th, 2008

02:26 am - Promise to Post Well, I promised to post today, but I was working on a pic, hoping to get it done to post on the Live Journal, but it's gotten late and I need to go to bed. -_- I'll post a real one tomorrow, honest~ @_@

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July 23rd, 2008

12:33 am - Moo-Men Afoot~ Hello All~ XD I know I haven't done an update in a while and I think it's just because I've been a lazy slacker. ._. Many many really neat things have happened over the past month and I promise I'll post about it tomorrow. ^.^ It's just really late now, I'm ready to go to bed T-T, aaand my BF's conveniently on the computer with the scanner so I can't scan any of my pencil drawings!~ Thank you for your comments and your support everyone; even though I'm lazy with my Live Journal, my friends don't give up on me. Thank you so much! >.< Moo-Men Afoot! Because of the idea of needing to start a continuous comic tugging on the back of my mind, I've been doing sketches, designs, and story boards of a few "off-whim" comics. I have a strong feeling that I probably won't do most of them, but because of all that, I've gotten a bit further on the Moo-Men/Sky Pirate comic that Yuu and I did for BAAU Down years ago. XD I think I'm up to like around chapter 10. >.> -unfortunately, it's all in very very rough doodle form. ._. I know the pictuer is really sketchy, but it's the redesigned two sister characters on an airship with the horizon, clouds, and other airships in the sky. I was planning on finishing it up with moo-men and some of the other characters, but I got distracted and many things came up. '_' I think I still want to finish it up later, but I'm kinda lazy and I keep wanting to do new pictures. ._. I think I'm really impatient. o_< -anyhow, don't be surprised if you see this one again in a final form. ^^ ( Read more )

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June 23rd, 2008

11:36 am - Cleavage! Yay! So, Fei-chan has been busy with lots of things recently. I've been bugging her to post on LJ / Deviant but I was impatient and decided to do a ninja post instead. About a month and a half ago she and I went to my Dad's place for dinner and she was asked to do a drawing by my dad and his wife. My dad threw out a bunch of silly things; orcs, cleavage, orcs with clevage (hes a Warcraft 2/3 fan). While she did a rather impressive drawing, there was no cleavage... SO; upon telling one of our RO friends about it, he and I started bugging her for a cleavage picture. So finally last night she busted it out (no pun intended >_>). Enjoy~ -ZipperBear Oh, and by the by, the color scheme on the left is Fei-chans and the color scheme on the right is mine; she let me play with that a bit. I asked her to add both into one file because...well, two times the pleasure, right? ^_~

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April 20th, 2008

03:07 am - BD7, job?, dad I finished my comic on the 15th; though I was originally planning to finish on April 1st and even asked for an extension till the 8th. >_> It’s done now though! Thank goodness.~ XD Here it is if you guys are interested. I hope you like it. ^.^ http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c142/anifei/bd7-01.jpg http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c142/anifei/bd7-02.jpg http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c142/anifei/bd7-03.jpg http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c142/anifei/bd7-04.jpg http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c142/anifei/bd7-05.jpg http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c142/anifei/bd7-06.jpg http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c142/anifei/bd7-07.jpg http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c142/anifei/bd7-08.jpg http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c142/anifei/bd7-09.jpg http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c142/anifei/bd7-10.jpg http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c142/anifei/bd7-11.jpg http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c142/anifei/bd7-12.jpg http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c142/anifei/bd7-13.jpg http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c142/anifei/bd7-14.jpg http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c142/anifei/bd7-15.jpg http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c142/anifei/bd7-blurb.jpg -and here are some tablet doodles…. >.> --------------------------------------------------------------------------- Wild Arms XF Casey recently bought a PSP since he’s been thinking of getting one for quite a while. Aside from buying the system itself and almost a handful of games, he got Wild Arms XF for me as a gift!~ XD I’ve had my sites on the game for a while and was so hyped into it that I was considering buying one without having a PSP. It’s probably a bad habit to buy games for systems you don’t have. -_- There was a contest due April 12th at www.rpgamer.com to win a copy of the game (one of choices of entry was Wild Arms fan art) and I was really wanting to do it to get the game, but I didn’t have time because of my BAAU entry. '_' It’s so nice that even though I missed the contest, I still got it! XD –though I owe Casey a picture with cleavage now. ^^ Though I’ve had the game in my possession for about a week now, I still haven’t opened it because I still haven’t gotten around to doing the art piece for Casey. '_' Casey did say that I can open it and check it out, but I can’t seem to get myself to do it. It’s not that I don’t want to; in fact, I very much want to! >.< I think that it may be because I feel that if I open it, I’ll want to continue playing it, which I shouldn’t or can’t because I already have so many things I need/want to do involving art, becoming better, and pursuing my dream to becoming a “mangaka.” -Hopefully, one day soon I’ll feel that I’ve done enough to deserve to open and play it. *sigh* ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Strawberry Skies My webpage’s name is Strawberry Sea, but I think I’ll change it to Strawberry Skies because it just sounds better. XD I’ve been thinking of changing the name for a while now anyways since the name “Strawberry Sea” never really grew on me since I made the site in 1997. >.> Anyhow, my site’s up now and it’s updated!! XD Wow! What an achievement! I’m still using geocities though so that kinda sucks. >.> After finishing my BAAU project, I figured that one of the first things I should do was get my site up since it’s been down for so long. I doesn’t have to be extravagant, it just needs to work. I can always beef it up later, right? All pages are working except for the Gallery page. I was thinking of getting a Deviant Art page and using it as my gallery page out of laziness and since Deviant Art would be good publicity anyway. I signed up for a page about two days ago and it was a lot harder for me to do than it should have been. @_@ For some reason, I just really didn’t want a Deviant Art page. I think it may have been a mixture of emotions: 1) Deviant Art has a lot of really good artists. T-T (I often feel discouraged when seeing awesome amateur artists) 2) I guess I don’t like how it’s such a “the thing” thing that it seems like EVERYONE has a page like myspace. @_@ 3) I heard that community isn’t very good, like it’s elitist or something. o_< -though that was long ago and it might be different now. I ended up registering and getting a page after fighting myself for over ten minutes, but it’s still empty because I’m lazy. >_> -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A change in life’s pace Casey was recently let go from work; it really shocked me but Casey said he felt it coming. The company apparently didn’t feel like the branch he worked at was profitable enough.. One of the reasons why it surprised me so much is because he worked so long and hard and was one of the three main components that held the whole branch together. Casey tells me that from this, him and his work comrades don’t see much for the branch’s future. *sigh* I think I’m still a bit shaken up from the news since Casey had a big income and often times seems pretty free at spending his money. I’m a bit worried because being very business-like, he accumulates debt to something, something, tax, something, etc. I don’t really know anything about his financial situation, but he’s not worried so I shouldn’t worry either. I need to get a job now though so I’ve been collecting applications; It’ll be good for me to meet people in the area, make some friends, pay my keep, etc. I’m excited, yet very scared too. lol I suppose I’ve been secluded away from people for way too long. XD --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Dad retired I went back to San Jose for a week starting April 1st for my sister’s wedding reception. A lot of my family was there, including my dad. He retired in February and will be living in San Jose for two months. Seeing him was nice and I realized again how much I still love him. We joked and talked like we used to, but it was still a bit frustrating as usual because of his usual attitude of him knowing everything and taking up pretty much all of my brother’s and my free time (and more). My brother was accepted into Cogswell college and my dad said he’ll help pay for the tuition! ~ I was really happy and excited to hear the news, I think I was more excited than my brother actually. I wanted to go to Cogswell years ago, but my dad forbade it, saying that the College wasn’t any good because he’s never heard the name before and that when getting a job, employers look for big “State College” names. I’m not sure how it happened, but dad decided to let my brother go and while in San Jose, he took a tour of the college and was really impressed and is now telling me that he thinks I should go too (and that he’ll help pay the tuition). I still want to go and I know it’s a great and limited opportunity/life changing choice, but now I feel grounded in LA with Casey. *sigh* -anyhow, I’ll leave it at that. >.> My dad was also saying how he thinks I should go back to Taiwan this summer to continue taking Chinese classes. At first, I was thinking, “It’d be really awesome to go!!” XD –but after thinking about it for a bit, I began to wonder if my dad will pull what he did last time and give me a huge guilt trip about coming back to the states. >_> When I left for Taiwan last time, he said “you can come back to the US any time you want;” whatever happened to that? o_< Also, when I live with my dad, he takes FULL control of ANY time I’m home, full control of weekends, and he wants me to report to him on what I did while we weren’t together >.>. He ALWAYS wants to go out, even when he has no idea what to do or where to go, so we often end up going out, running errands, seeing the same places over again, and/or wandering around doing nothing when I could probably be getting a lot of work and studying done. >_> I know that it’s because he wants to spend time with us. -_- I do enjoy our times together because I love seeing him happy and it’s often fun but it also feels stressing at the same time. I know I’m lucky. I wish I could make him happy, but whatever I do never seems to be satisfying; it feels like I’m trying to fill an unfillable hole.

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03:05 am - Actually Written on April 1st. BAAUDown7 entry progress So it turns out that I didn’t make the deadline that I posted for myself. -.- I thought and said that I’d be done by April first, but I severely over miscalculated. *sigh* When I started, I had two weeks to finish, but I also didn’t expect my cover entry to take so long and for just the rough draft to take two days; I also thought that I’d be able to finish pages much faster considering how fast I did it last time, but it just isn’t turning out for some reason. '_' It’s been taking me about three and a half hours per page and I can’t help to feel that I’m drawing waay too slow. I wonder how long it takes for Yuu and Alex(o_8) to finish a page. '_' I’m really not into it as much as I was in my last BD entry neither, but I think it’s because I had far more interesting character designs, concept, and setting. I was going to do the comic I scrapped for BD5 at first, but really couldn’t bring myself to do it. I thought the pattern of the story was too similar to my entry in BD4 and that it was too much of a depressing tone; not only that, but it had winged people and I honestly can’t stand winged/angelic/demon-things anymore! >_< -they’ve been soooooo done to death!!! >.< I don’t think I ever again even want to touch the topic of angels, demons, or bird/bat-winged things on organisms for a spiritual effect. >o (mecha, gods, spirits, and fairies are okay though >.>) -anyhow, I’ve been feeling a bit discouraged with the feeling of my comic being a “stupid idea” hanging over my shoulders. ._. Casey laughed at what I had a few nights ago which made me really happy, but… I don’t know. I’m at page 9/15 and just looking at the next blank page makes me want to put my face in my hands and sigh. It’d be really nice to know when the real deadline is so I don’t have to feel so bad about asking for an extension. '_' All I know is that it’s “in April.” >.> One person put their turn-in date as being the 18th and another recently put theirs as being the 11th so I suppose I should be okay, right? '_' I’d like to go back to add backgrounds and details too if I finish and still have spare time. Cheers to good luck on progress.~ ------------------------------------------------------ News in gaming ^-^ Yeah, I know that I shouldn’t be playing any games, but hey, I thought that I deserved a gaming-break for burning myself out for the past few days. =D NuitoLove2!!!!~ Yuu linked an awesome “doujn game” called Chalk on his live journal months ago! XD The maker is apparently almost finished with another game, a sequel to one he made called Nuito Love. I didn’t play much of Nuito Love at all, but part 2 looks and plays super awesome!!~ @_@ You can download the demo at: http://www.konjak.org/. I feel so hyped about this game, I can’t wait for the full version! XD It just oozes the Treasure fast paced action feeling I haven’t had since Mischief Makers on the N64~ (such an awesome game T-T) It feels like this can be the next Cave Story thing XD –just not as, umm… exploratory. I’m not dissing Cave Story though, it’s uber awesome!~ @_@ -Anyhow, I really like this guy’s stuff! XD He also has a bunch of neat sprites and artwork he’s done for projects that he’s dropped; it’s such a shame too because I’d so very much love to play/check out some of those games from what I see. ._. By the way, you can catch a trailer for the game on www.gametrailers.com and on the above linked site. ^.^ ------------------------------------------------------ News in “Tales of xxxx” ‘_’ The last Play magazine has an interview with two of the creators of the new Tales of game, Tales of Vesperia for Xbox360. One of the things that stood out to me was the creators saying that the battle system used in Vesperia will be how Tales games will be for now on. '_' I’m kind of disappointed at that because the battle system in Tales of the Abyss (the base battle system they plan to use for ToV) was kind of nice, but I had much MUCH more fun with the battles in Tales of Destiny 2 and Tales of Destiny (remake) that used the old 2d side scrolling formula. ._. –not only that, but the special moves and hi-ougis (the super moves/ “limit breaks”) look sooooo much more impressive in the 2d battles. @_@ One of the things I noticed when looking at recent games is that the hi-ougis in the polygon Tales games just don’t have the beautiful flare that the sprite-based ones have. '_' Tales of the Abyss hi-ougis are “oo-kay” but most of them seem to rely on the Final Fantasy “special move” formula, -do generic simple body motions but add lots of colorful lights, sparkles, and transparencies. >_> Tales of Innocence doesn’t have impressive moves, but I suppose they’re not really “bad” per say. o_< The hi-ougis for the PSP Tales of the World just look BAD. *sigh* -.- I know I’m focusing a lot on the hi-ougis here, but they’re one of the things that make some of the “recent” tales games so cool! XD –it gives the giddy little feeling one has when they pull of some cleverly planned out super combo in a fighting game because of the “bang!” they give off! XD Anyhow, yeah, what a shame. -_-

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March 20th, 2008

01:52 am - Persona4 Yay! I feel proud of myself because I found some hard to find new Persona4 stuff! XD Persona4 Previw part1 http://jp.youtube.com/watch?v=iTEzRYNNkeE part2 http://jp.youtube.com/watch?v=TckU1l6Dwaw Good night. >.>

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March 19th, 2008

09:52 pm - BAAU Down7~ Finally done with my cover submission. @_@ I'm two days past the due date I gave myself but at least it's done! >.< Now I can focus on my comic which I have about a week and a half to finish. =o I worked on the roughs while waiting at the laundromat yestereday (dog peed on the bed ._.); It's basically picking up and reworking the pieces of the comic that I didn't finish for BD5. I admit that I'm liking it, but I'm wondering if I should start something new and random instead. '_' it's not very lighthearted. The main reason why I didn't go with it in BD5 is because I was only allowed 12 pages then and it rushed the comic's pacing. I have 15 pages this time, enough for me to do what I want to do, but I kinda want to do something happier ._. hmm [edit] Oh yeah! XD One of the major reasons why it took so long is because when I was drawing it in pencil, I was getting tired and told myself, "hey, it's okay, I'll just finish it/touch it up after I scan it in. =p" *sigh* when will I stop doing that? T-T It takes soo much more time to draw/fix up details on the computer than by hand. -but things also turn out much cleaner on the computer too and it's easier to get in those "narrow hard to reach areas." '_' hmm. ._. -it took so long because I was being indecisive on colors and tones also. ^^; Anyday, here's the "cover" version of the above picture if you're curious.~ http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c142/anifei/BD7covermodsm.jpg ( Read more )

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March 14th, 2008

08:47 pm - Getting Life In Gear! >o Wing and Live Journal About a month ago, I gave an online friend, “Wing,” my Live Journal URL. He went back and read a number of my old entries and later suggested that I go back and read them myself. After doing so, I was feeling very nostalgic reminiscing my past. ^^ I began thinking of how important my live journal actually is; that it’s a record of my life, not only for entertainment and for my connection to friends, but for myself. I don’t want to forget the troubles I’ve gone through, the happy times I’ve had, all the things that make me who I am. ‘_’ –so I’ve decided to make an effort to be more active in this activity. ‘_’ Back around the time I started, I wrote whatever came to mind, but in the later entries, I tried forcing myself into the habit of “I can’t post on my Live Journal unless I post a drawing too,” but then got so caught up in wanting to post things that are much more than “doodles” that I ended up not posting for a while. I’ll stop doing that; it’s like what Wing told me, “that’s what deviant art is for.” I can post whatever I want on my journal, right? So- I’ll post whatever doodles happen and what comes to my mind. ^-^ ( Read more )

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March 2nd, 2008

12:15 am - Broadcasting From a Secret Location OMG!! ZipperBear here (Fei's BF), and I have taken control of Fei-chan's LJ. WHAT WHAT? Anyways, she has been working on super secret stuff but that doesn't mean she gets to neglect her LJ. I wanted to hop on while shes distracted by....things... and post some of her recent artwork. I'm too lazy to figure out how to get it posted into the comments section, so you will all have to suffer bandwidth reducing tyranny of artwork. I'll be putting more pressure on Fei-chan to post more often, so look forward to it, ne? -ZipperBear ( cut by fei )

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December 23rd, 2007

12:03 am - The end of my stay in Taiwan wow, time really seems to be moving fast for me. It's hard for me to believe that I've already been living in Los Angeles for four months. I think I'm pretty used to the area now up to a two mile radius (in two directions XD) I've been putting off this email because there was so much that I would have needed to write and because a lot of it affected me deeply and emotionally. I've been feeling much better lately though; I think my emotional wounds finally healed up for the most part. Before I left for the states, my dad kept telling me that he was "not forcing" me to go to Taiwan and that I could return back to the states whenever I pleased and promised many life and learning opportunities and experiences. As months went by, it seemed like he kept hinting how he thinks I should live in Taiwan for the rest of my life like by saying how he sees the US like a second home and Taiwan as being his base of operations since it's so close to mainland China, an industrial powerhouse, and how I should copy him since it's a good idea. He also told me continuously about how a very "reliable" and "famous" fortune teller told him that I will be successful only if I live far away from where I was born (that being Taiwan specifically to him). Sure, I was enjoying myself in Taiwan; I liked it, but I still felt lonely and the opportunities and experiences my dad promised me never happened. I ended up being a non-wage earning "on-call" intern for my uncle who owned a graphic arts studio. (I won't go into details because you all probably read the Taiwan entries >.>) I know it was a great opportunity to draw and work on my portfolio, but I also felt kind of empty, like I was waiting for something that was never coming. I couldn't go anywhere I wanted to go either since I was expected to be at the office during weekday business hours and my dad ALWAYS had full control of my weekends. During my second month in Taiwan, my dad decided to ask his friends around for contacts with game companies to hire me for illustrations and graphic arts. I was really iffy about it, but I figured it'd be a neat experience and it would help me get my foot into the door. =o I actually got excited about it for a bit too. ^^ There are a lot of really awesome game art/artists out there as you all know. XD My dad before would tell me that Taiwan was a great place for opportunities in the manga, animation, and game fields. I didn't really believe him at first, but decided to have some faith in his words; I suppose he didn't know a thing about them in the end though. After talking to some people in taiwan and looking around some more, I came to the conclusion that Taiwan-made manga, games, and animation really aren't... to my taste. 99 percent of Taiwan/China-made computer games are Chinese history/culture based with DECENT art, I haven't seen one Taiwan/China-made animation/theatrical motion picture/advertisement for motion picture that doesn't use kinda-cheap looking computer/special effects and animation techniques(I've seen better-looking flash movies. >_>) all which are also Chinese history/culture based. Professional Published Taiwan-made manga fail to impress me. '_' -I mean, I'm happy for those artists to have such an achievement such as becoming a full-fledged published mangaka, but all the art I see in Taiwan-made manga seem a little lacking in skill. ._. I once even bought one of those huge monochrome-paged monthly "Shounen Jump" manga compilations (but all shoujo XD) that had Taiwan-made manga and still saw the same problems. I'm probably too picky though, I don't know. >.< -after all, it's about storytelling, not art, right? '_' By the way, I'm really sick of the whole "proud of Chinese history/culture" theme that infects Taiwan and Chinese media. >.< went off topic again... /sigh -.- -well, months passed and we had no job replies. I'm not sure what I was thinking. I suppose that deep inside, I was making it a possibility that Taiwan might become a permanent residence. If I was planning on coming back to the states, I probably shouldn't have agreed for my dad to ask his friends if they knew any companies with job openings for artists. >_> Last mid-July I told my dad that I wanted to come back to the states and that I wanted to be with Casey (my bf) and my dad forbid it. He hammered on me about it for two weeks every morning and night, but I was adamant at my decision and reserved my plane ticket without telling him. Things my dad said: "You kept saying that you love me before, but now I know that it doesn't mean anything. You don't love me; you don't even know what love means." (This hurt the most. Later, I thought that maybe he just said it because he was really mad and that he didn't really mean it, but he ended up repeating it to me more times later.) "Go on, tell me what love is!" me- silent "You were treating my like your clown, making me run back and forth begging my friends for favors and you just point your finger laughing at me saying "hah hah, look at the clown!" You know how much I hate begging! I begged my friends for contacts to get you a good job! I begged my friends to help me find a doctor for skin!" "If you go back to the States, you're dropping your dream job." (My aunt and her friend said that they'd hire me for contract work that gives me freedom to do what I want and that I didn't necessarily need to be in Taiwan to work for them. The job was to draw images to go along with music they provide. A program they created will make the images float around as a music collage/music video. This is not my "dream job" though.) "You said you have passion, but now I see you don't! You don't even know what passion is! If you had passion, you'd pursue this job no matter what!" (Like the above mentioned "love" statement, this one hurt a lot and he repeated a number of times too.) "You're relationship won't last! Relationships never last! 50% of marriages don't even stay together! See how many boyfriends your sister's had? I've divorced, Aunt Gau divorced, Aunt Jeane Divorced! You're relationship won't even last three months!" "What does the guy do for a job?" me- pause... "I don't remember what it's called." "Where did he graduate? What is his major?" me- "I don't remember" "You don't even know what he does! How do you even know he is who he is or has the job he has? Have you seen him work? It's because he told you! Everything he's telling you about himself is a lie!" (Casey's 27yrs old and has a really good job. He's amazingly young for his business achievements. '_') "What are you going to do about your health? Your skin? Your health is in a critical condition! I'm absolutely sure that no other doctor in the world can help you except for the doctor we are seeing." (I have a severe form of eczema. I has hindered a lot of things in my life. The Chinese doctor we were seeing said it is because my liver is very ill. He recently said my pancreas is in critical condition too. I've been taking his medicine for about four years now and I'm still not cured. The medicine is very expensive but none of us know what the medicine's active ingredients are. near the end of July I went to get a blood test. The blood test says that I'm perfectly fit, except for a chemical that is too high which is related to allergies and my skin problem. The test says my liver and pancreas have no problems.) After showing the blood test results to my dad, he said: "You can't trust western medicine, it's all numbers and statistics and doesn't mean anything. Western medicine lacks actual body knowledge that Chinese medicine (traditional old style) has." (The Chinese doctor examines a person's body condition by looking at not only the obvious outside appearance of the person but by closely looking at the eyes, open mouth, hands, and pulse. I think I have more faith in the blood analysis '_') "I'm not telling you this to scare you, but if you go back to the United States, you will die." "You are dropping your health and dream career if you leave Taiwan!" I cried every morning and night. I was seriously thinking of running away to the airport and staying there for days until my flight came. Casey hearing how terrible I was feeling over the phone decided to write a letter to my dad one day. After that letter, my dad pretended that the fight never happened except for the fact that he said "I love you" at the end of a phone call one night. He never took the initiative to say it before. I just stood there not sure what to say. After about four seconds of silence my dad called my name on the phone again asking if I was there. I didn't know what to say, but I ended up saying "I love you too." in return. It really hurt to say it and it didn't feel real either. When I left for the plane terminal to the U.S. My dad told me that he'll love me no matter what. I got really emotional and told him that I loved him two or three times. Even though he acts like the fight never happened, it still really hurts me. Now, whenever we write emails to each other and he ends his letters with "love, dad," I pause because I don't feel like writing it and always end up writing "love" at the end of my letters as a formality now. Casey said that I should write a letter to him about my feelings and to have faith in him because of what he said at the airport and because he's my father. it's late, good night. '_'

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December 1st, 2007

03:37 am - Tons of catch up pics to kill your bandwidth. >.> ( The stuff )

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November 22nd, 2007

01:49 am - Back in the states... A lot of things have happened. I have a lot of things to catch up on for over the past three months. -a lot of life changing experiences and huge turning points in my life. It's late so I won't cover it now, but I just felt like writing. My dad, my uncle, and my grandfather went to Shanghai, China without me. It feels a bit like I missed out. I'm not saying that I'm not happy. I'm very happy now, but I can't help to feel like I left an important piece of me back in Taiwan. It makes me feel kind of sad. I look at the pictures of China and Taiwan and kinda wish I was Chinese which is weird because I am Chinese... It's strange; living in Taiwan makes me feel like I belong, and yet at the same time I don't. Maybe I'm just longing to be a part of a "people," or group. Seeing the pictures also makes me miss my family and makes me want to express how much I love them. I'm not living with my mom and family as I did before Taiwan. I'm living in Los Angeles with my boyfriend, Casey. Yes, I have a boyfriend. ^^ I know it's a first for many of you to know. I think it was still very new to me, and I've been feeling shy (and other things) about mentioning him(even though we've been in a very happy relationship for three years running now. XD) Living in LA has required a number of adjustments to my life and I fell out of the drawing groove that consumed me while I lived in Taiwan. I think I finally got my groove back now so I'll be doing many more updates and drawings!~ ^-^ They might not come as often as they did while I was in Taiwan becuase I'll be focused on projects, not just simply drawing. Wish me luck! ^_^

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August 18th, 2007

11:42 pm - Fanart for Yuu XD I'm feeling much better now than I was over the past few days. ^-^ Thank you everyone for your care, support, your help, and your time. I am very greatful.~ Thank you everyone from the bottom of my heart. So so- on to business!~ ^.- XD Thanks to the fact that Yuu and I made a little deal for both of us to simultaneously "shoot for something beyond the mundane nature of our current lives," I have been more motivated to start my big comic. ^.^ I haven't started writing anything down, but I've been having a plethora of ideas linking together a story and I've been drawing character designs and scene concepts. ^.^ I've thought about starting in the writing process for the past two days, but there is still so much I want to do first. =o -like some more character designs. I think I'm also kinda... -I don't know, "not feeling like it" at the same time because I actually haven't written a script since high school. ^^;; Back then, Yuusuke and I wrote a story together that we were meaning to make into a comic called "Neo Mammon." '_' Thinking back to it is "painfully nolstagic!" >.< *ouch* I'm anxious and fired up to work on my story! >=D I just hope that it doesn't turn out corny or like I ripped off anything. o_< I have to go soon so I'll make this brief! =O I was checking out Yuusuke's website and got really stoked to see him CG coloring something! XD He never CG's! I looked around some more and looked through his gallery and had the sudden urge to draw some fan art for him. ^.^ I chose his magical girl, Atsuki character for his nanimwo (mispelled, but must go >.>). She didn't have any color on her so I didn't have any references. '_' There's color today though, so it's all wrong. XD If Yuusuke wants, I'll fix the colors later. =p The picture still looks weird though and I can't help to see it. '_' It really bugs me. >.> Can you see it? XD oh yes, and the weapon isn't done being colored, and the background is really bland. >.> I have no idea what the story's about. XD shounen magical girl story, interesting!~ XD

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August 16th, 2007

02:24 am I just wrote a letter of confession (and explanation) to someone I 愛上了 a long time ago. I hurt them by accident and it broke my heart. Writing the confession was painful, but I'm happy to finally get it out. I hope they understand. '_' I hope we can be friends again. ._.

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